Heart-Light Gatherings – A Joy of the Heart.
As I travel around the countryside doing workshops, gathering beautiful souls together with our Heart-Light Gatherings for Earth Angels and guest speaking, I am always at awe when I sit back and listen, truly listen, to stories of wisdom shared from open hearts. After yet another one of my dreams, (oh no), I have decided to begin, what only I can describe as the birthing of yet another idea, Heart-Light Gatherings for Earth Angels.
Don’t you just love it when you come across a book, or in conversation, something that is said, or shown to you to say, ‘I needed to hear, or read whatever it was at that very moment?’ My friend, Pat, calls them serendipity moments… I call them remembering. That’s what the gift of this newsletter is all about.
As I sit amongst those who are gathering for the Heart-Light Gatherings, I can’t help but feel humbled to be in the presence of such beautiful souls.
After the first one at Cooran, on the Sunshine Coast, I became quite withdrawn, almost depressed. I sat on the beach at Mooloolaba the following day and found myself searching deep within my soul to find the reason why, as I am usually upbeat and positive. I realized those who I was meeting within the circles, many for the first time, felt like family…my REAL family. I had come home. That deep chasm, the missing piece I had been searching for all my life, friends from the heart, I was now finding…and I didn’t want to let it go. I thought if I was feeling this, so must many others.
My gatherings are my way of bringing your family home to you.
Sitting in the glorious winter sunshine today, reading Life and Teaching of the Masters of the Far East, by Baird T. Spalding, which was written in the late 1800’s, I couldn’t help but
wonder if we have grown spiritually at all from those past times. Their simplistic, yet at times complicated teachings have unearthed in me the thirst to know more. Not ‘more’ from classes, books or workshops, but more from my own heart, my own knowledge, my own truths.
Re-reading my first book, Messages of Love: my spiritual awakening, I couldn’t help but wonder why I had created such chaos in my life. Those deep dark moments that takes you right to the edge, with the possibility of no return. I wondered many times if I was losing my sanity as my grip on life was holding on by a very fine thread. It is only now, all these years down the track I can look back and understand what my journey was all about. It is not about getting into the victim mode…why me? It is about taking back my own power. In those times of being trapped in my own dungeon, sitting in my own mire of destruction, I was able to step back and take a good look at why I was living the kind of life I was. I knew I was not a bad person, I knew I had a good heart, yet the pit of darkness seemed to surround me like a cloak.
It saddens, yet liberates me to be able to say this to you…I felt unworthy…unworthy of love, happiness, joy, abundance etc. I sabotaged all of my birthright gifts, just because I felt unworthy.
Do I do this now? I try my hardest everyday to see myself as a daughter of God – perfect on ALL levels. All I can do is each day recognize my divine-self and love myself for being just who I am. Not someone’s daughter, mother, wife, chef, cleaner, employee, employer, friend, aunt, counsellor, writer. I am ME, Jen-Irishu and I AM worthy of EVERYTHING. I AM worthy of abundance on ALL levels, emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. I AM love, so I don’t need to look for it anywhere outside of myself.
How many of us can be honest enough to admit to feeling as I have felt on many occasions? If you don’t, you are lying to your soul. It takes courage to delve deep into that dark cave within and heal. It takes courage to recognize those parts of ourselves we need to look at and work on. I takes courage to see our own divinity and say, yes, I AM perfect just the way I am, without prejudice!
I read this afternoon from Baird T. Spalding’s enlightening book the words of Jesus.
“You must know that you are truly divine; and being divine, you must see that all men are as you are. You will know that there are dark places you must pass with the light that you are to carry to the highest. And your soul will ring out in praise that you can be of service to all men. Then with a glad free shout you mount to your very highest in your union with God.”
I always ask this question when doing a workshop or any kind of gathering, “Do you truly know what is your true purpose is?” Let me tell you not too many can answer. I have to ask myself…are we robots? Am I the only one who questions my reason for being on our beautiful earth, in this incarnation? I was asked in Coffs Harbour if I knew my true purpose. Too right I do…I am here in service. I am a living facet of God doing his work, unconditionally. I am a hu-man, (God-man), incarnated in the physical to carry on the work of the divine. That is the beginning and the end of it! It is that simple.
Last week I received a phone call from my friend, Marina. She asked what she could do to help me! What! I thought. Some one is asking what they can do to help me, instead of asking for my help! This is one of God’s true Earth Angels, I thought to myself, as I picked myself off the floor. The offer was pure and unconditional…that’s what I call true love. The same applies to those who are coming forward to do the Heart-light Gatherings. I am just the gatherer…you are the true disciples.
Looking back over my life Earth Angels have always been with me in one way or another. How can I thank you all?
Don’t you feel it is time to ask another the same question? What can I do for you? That’s what I call true heart-joy.
From my heart to yours in love, Jen xxx